FYI

i got the bra stick thingys today...

they are just ok.

they are not big enough for me.

i feel discriminated against.

why is it so hard to find bras for big boobs??

anyway...

i decided i am going to plan a trip to vegas for my ladies.

i miss being with my friends... and it is well known that spanish people have more fun!! :D
so...

i'm thinking first week in september, just before school starts, get away to vegas for 3-4 nights?

i think it would be great.

party time like in the good old days! :D
it would do wonders for my sanity.
of course i would love to see you all.
so let me know if you're in and i'll get on it!
ya sabeis: patricia, tania, patricia a, lara, irene, lorena, natalia, las misiego, las iglesias...
quien mas esta por ahi q se me olvida?

Swimming!!!

manning park

i had an amazing weekend!

getting ready for it i felt a bit apprehensive about being there with all those young kids ( 21-25 year old's are the young kids i'm talking about??? how have things changed so much for me?).

last time i attended a formal i felt so out of place that i was afraid it will be more of the same.

but no.

it was so fun!

on the bus there (we left at 10am) people started drinking already!

gross!

we got there had lunch had a little nap and went tubing.

my first time.

there were some girls that were wearing flats and jeans... these canadians are crazy!

thank goodness i borrowed some snow pants and boots because i wouldn't have lasted a minute after getting soaked in the snow.

it was super fun. i hadn't laughed so hard in a while!

we took some videos of ourselves going down the tracks... and they make me laugh all over again.

the cabin was so nice too.

they had a swimming pool, sauna and hot tub, but even though we brought our swimming suits we didn't go.

i mean... i imagined that to be like the bachelor pad... and i wasn't going there!

we loved it so much we want to go again with the whole clan.

that happens all the time.

we find something fun and we want to do it with our kids.

they would love it!

the dinner was super nice.

i loved the food.

after that, we had the whole cabin to ourselves because everyone gathered in a chalet to drink and party.

they had given us the "parent room"... well, i think we'd earned it :D so we enjoyed some privacy, anyway.

until our roommates came at around 3'30 all drunk and with the intention to continue the party, so evan had to get out and kick everyone out and send them to bed.

they all respect evan and look up to him.

i really enjoy all the guys from the fraternity. they are good kids. and they all made a point of helping me feel comfortable there, chatted with me, made me feel a part of the group... they were great. and to my surprise many complimented my look (again you can be attractive and modest at the same time).i mean... i am sure someone must have been wondering why i had an undershirt and leggings underneath my dress.

i was the odd one that wasn't showing any skin.

but i feel good about it.

one can still rock it without looking like a stripper!! :D

anyway, all went way too fast.

of course the kids didn't want to come back home.

and tracy said they were really good.

which makes me really happy.

i missed them...

but there is no price to coming home to silence.

we were reminded very quickly what it is like to have three kidlets around!!

you gotta love that!

The Great Escape

i'm leaving!!!

this weekend i'll be in a little cozy cabin in manning park.

some mountain activities and a fancy dinner... and two nights by ourselves!!!

( i hope isabel wil be good for auntie tracy!)

i'm so excited!

music

my babe is good.

he's done another of his songs.

here is the link so you can hear some.

and you can buy his album here

and here

my favorite is...

my kids were telling each other what their favorite movies were. carmen said "duma" and "g-force" ( we had just seen that one, but duma... it has been a while, so it was a bit impressive).

carmen fascinates me.

she is amazing to me.

today we had just finished watching brother bear 2.

there is a part where little koda misses his late mother, and the girl tells him" when you love somebody they will be forever in your heart" and carmen says: just like great grandma B!

so i asked her how that was like grandma B. she told me she died, but she will always be on our hearts.

she hardly spent any time with her on earth, but i know their relationship was larger than that time spent here.

she loves her.

even before she met her.

and she loves her still.

she is just an amazing kid.

she is more than her 6 years old.

her spirit is so much more.

our spirits are so much more than our bodies, than our age.

and my 6 year old daughter reminds me of this everyday.

have i told you?

i need to go shopping for bras.

i hate bras...

a little less than shopping for them, but i hate them.

yes, i don't care if they die.

i want to be bra free.

anyway.... i saw this

http://www.brastick.com/index.php?country=CA&a=001&b=stick

i wonder if i will like it.

i might try it.

carmen....artist and environmentalist

she likes nature, she likes to sing.... she makes up a song about taking care of our land.

when she said she wanted to sing for me, i immediately grabbed the camera and pushed record!

this is going into history, i thought :P

so, enjoy, and celebrate earth day next saturday!!!

let's join our forces!

and not let anything come and stop you :D

one month

i have missed 4 weeks of church.

but i made it today.

finally everyone is feeling good and we could go.

i had forgotten how hard it is to keep my kids quiet.

especially when i am on my own.

evan is free next week, so he'll come to church with us. yeah!

i finally payed tithing. i really dislike having the tithing home for all this long time.

i got my papers signed by the bishop so i can finally get my legal documents by the name of Esther Jabonero Clarke. I'm so excited.

i also got the chance to chat with him a little.

i really like him.

that calling of a bishop is amazing.

it is very clear to me that bishops have the support of angels.

evan got a talk in sacrament in a few weeks.

i had a lesson in rs a few weeks ago and church was cancelled because of snow.

this coming wednesday we have the celebration for the rs 169 anniversary.

i am really excited.

i love all the activities we have with the sisters.

and this week i need to set an appointment to get my other wisdom teeth out.

how exciting :/

somethings...they just take some time

so i have a confession to make.

i just cleaned the inside of the car since we got back from our Christmas holidays.

i know.

that's embarrasing.

i should be ashamed of myself.

but that's another thing that it is hard to do when you have kids.

but... i did it and now it is clean.

so super clean.

because i even got the car seat covers out, and the blanket that i put underneath the seats to get all the crumbs and things that fall off the seats, and the floor things... all that i washed.

so now my car is clean :D

i took evan jr to get his "silver teeth" as they call them now.

he was excited, he said.

but poor thing, he didn't handle the pain and the coming out of the anesthesia too well.

i could hear him crying from the waiting area, but they wouldn't let me in just then. i had to turn around and not let them see my tears.

this experience is very traumatic for a mother, let me tell ya.

i didn't want my kids to see my crying either,

but as hard as i tried to hide it in my voice, i couldn't hold back the tears.

he was really excited to get his surprise, so much he didn't go to sleep in the car but rather played with his new toys.

he is so good.

his teeth do hurt though.

but he is doing just fine.

what a good boy.

let's hope i don;t have to visit the dentist for a while now :D

lo q dicen los ninyos

estamos intentando tener solo dos horas de tele/ordenador en casa estos dias.

pero hoy evan (no es solo hoy, y es siempre evan) intento hacerse con un rato mas, pero voy yo y le apago la tele. le digo: "ya no mas tele, que tienes los ojos cuadrados como la tele".

a lo q me responde: " me voy a ver en el espejo".

me meo.

pobrecillo.

pero asi con la tonteria, se le olvido que no habia mas tele. porq siempre me la monta.

a lo mejor se cree que de verdad se te ponen los ojos com la tele de tanto verla! :P

me encantan los ninyos

too much is too much

i'm sick.

again.

it looks like i'm always sick.

and it sucks.

i was thinking about the time when i've felt the most healthier and it was when i was taking herbalife.

so i've started to take it again.

see what happens.

i need all that energy back.

and all my health back.

isabel is sick too.

she's always sick.... and i know her diet is not really good, so that might be the answer.

she is the one that gives me most problems when it is time to eat.

i wish she was like carmen. she eats everything!

and evan...i think he is a vegeterain... never puts meat in his mouth. good for him! i am happy when he eats fish though. he seems to love it.

but isabel....man. that girl just wants cheese, yoghurt and sugary stuff. of course.

not good.

and she's always snacking so she'll never eat much at the table.

anyway... i am a really bad mom... i let this 2 year old take control of what she eats

stress gets me down too.

and i am super stressed right now with all the dentist stuff going on.

thankgoodness i'm healing well from the wisdom teeth, carmen is doing amazing ( but let me tell you...that was a traumatic experience for me. to see your child close her eyes and leave her there, with a mask on, on an OR....scary) and evan goes this week. and i will have to go again for the remaining wisdom teeth... not a fun time.

in addition to my stress level, the police pulled me over, claiming he saw me talking on my cell phone...which i am totally disputing, but i got so upset by it.

i never talk on the phone while driving!

i had carmen on the back, 1 hours after her procedure, just barely coming out of her anesthesia and i was driving so carefully so she wouldn't be sick....

anyway... i guess i'll see him in court.

loser!

ok... it sucks to be me right now.... hopefully it will get better soon :D

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before... and after

so i never got my wisdom out when i was younger.

i've been suffering for over a year now.

always too poor to deal with it.

i call UBC... the will charge me $25 per tooth... heck, appointment booked.

i've been wanting to go to montana's since forever and evan surprised me yesterday with a date. before the pain and inability to eat.

so we did...

best wings, and best deep fried cheesecake!!

a must!

if you haven't had any, you haven't lived!

sooo delicious!

why didn't i think about it?? duhhh!!! wrap a cheesecake in pastry and deep fry it!!

so good!

anyway.

i just got back from the procedure.

mmm...

painful!!

bloody!!!

disgusting!!!

and now i got a bruised, swollen cheek, and some little blood blisters on my lip.

and a huge headache!

not fun!

so... apparently i can't eat anything... not that i want to put anything on my mouth right now... but it sucks! good thing i had my cravings covered last night! :P

another downer is that they only took out my top left one. the bottom ones are too difficult for a student so i will have to spend the big bucks on a professional surgeon...boooo!!

so there's a lot more of this in the future...

great!

just great! :(