Until We Meet Again

Evan's grandma passed away on Sunday.

When we found out I told the kids. I wasn't sure how they would react, but they immediately started talking about the toys she gave them for Christmas.

She died peacefully while she was sleeping. Carmen said she was with Heavenly Father now so we said a little prayer and we asked Him to look after her.

I thought I would share this video.

It is very comforting for me to know that I will one day build a relationship with her, and my own grandmother, and great grandmother... I feel like I missed on the wisdom they had to share.

I'm grateful for Jesus Christ that made that possible.

I hope you can feel the strength and truth of President Monson's testimony.

Fatherless Father's Day

I thought today would suck...and I was right.

Evan called me yesterday to tell me he was leaving for his 5 day camp, so he'll not call until he's back. :(

So here we are without him, no celebration, no especial anything because he's not around.

We all miss him so much and can't wait till next Monday when he'll be home for a few days...

Ahhh!!I'm so excited!!

Here's why the kids LOVE DADDY:

* He plays games with us in the computer.

* We watch Hockey together.

* He plays hockey with us.

* He hugs us.

* Hi sings songs for us at bed time.

* He takes on dates.

* He likes to play I spy.

And

I love him for ALL the above

and because

* He comforts me like no other.

I can't never hide my tears from him... and he just hugs me and that's all he needs to do to calm me down.

* He always... ALWAYS says I'm HOT :D

* There is NOTHING that he cannot fix.

* He writes beautiful songs.

* He is so smart and he's doing GREAT in school.

* He already knows the woman I have the potential to be.

* He is the first one to say sorry.

* He won't stop till he becomes his BEST. And he's right on track.

I LOVE YOU BABE!

Ok... and it helps he's SO darn good looking!

Better Days

Apparently someone has been very hormonal these days...

I hate my period!! It is one of my least favorites about being pregnant too!

Those mood changes are horrible!

Anyway... LA ROJA ( not the Spanish National Soccer Team) makes everything worse :D

So I heard back from my hubby.

He is COMING HOME!!

He'll be here on the 28th of June till the 4th of July.

I AM SO EXCITED!!
He'll be here for the Canada Day celebrations... there is so much fun stuff going on!

Ahhhh... and I will lose him again for another two months....

I'm so happy, though.

It looks like my little excursion to Idaho/Utah is happening for sure :D

I would like to visit the Island too... but we'll have to see if we have enough money.

I hate the ferry! I hate how expensive it is! But I would like to visit with my friend Leah, that just had her third GIRL!! Oh, boy! Bless... I really wanted her to have a boy :S

I am happy things seem to be working out. And if they do't...why worry about it, right?? That's what I think... it feels better :D

Bad Day....really Bad Day!

I had a bad day yesterday... one of those you know that if you cried you would feel better.

My car is dead.

That's Really Bad News!

Evan is not here to do anything about it, so it is on me.... and I have no idea.

Which brings me to one of my issues : Ask for Help.

It is hard for me...really hard... I rather be all miserable ( but on my own) than letting anyone else know that I am in need of help.

I then read this article in my friend's blog and reminded me of another of my issues... and that's when I lost it and I cried and cried...

It didn't make me feel better either!... but at least I let go of my emotions....sometimes you just have to.

My sweet neighbors did my lawn, and gave us a swing set! He is going to try to fix my car...at least make it last one more month.... and I made some super yummy buns for them :D

I am worried, though.

I hope I can get a way to teach my piano students.

I hope Evan gets in his next course so he can get money to buy a car when he gets back.

I hope I can manage this three months without my hubby's sweet company.

I hope I can get to have some fun in Utah/Idaho this summer and introduce my little Isabel to her auntie Tania.

I hope things work out :D

my body aches

I'm so tired!!
How do single mothers do it?

I'm so tired.... and the kids haven't been really bad or anything. There was only one day where I hoped for an escape, but you know, they are very normal 5, 3 and 1 year olds.

Sunday in Sacrament was a bit of a nightmare... but I was free from them after that.

The big plus of the day was that ALL the sister got to be in RS together.

It was a beautiful lesson.

I got to sing "His Hands" again for them.

I tried really hard to get it together in the end and sing between the tears... but I failed :S

That songs gets me EVERY TIME!

Please, don't ever ask me to sing that one until I master singing and crying at the same time :D

We got home, and the plan was that I would make lunch and picnic at the park. But... I was so tired!

I did made them lunch, then I got to talk to my hubby ( yeah! yeah! I miss him!) and then prepared something for me to eat and sat down to watch "dreamgirls".

After that I did get some energy to go out to the park. We were out there for pretty long. The kids were playing so nicely I didn't mind.

So got home, the kids had left over spaghetti and I cut out half of a watermelon and it was just going to be me eating it, but my kids dug in as well.

I went to bed at 9'30...I just couldn't wait for a new day.

This morning I served the kids breakfast, cleaned the kitchen, did my work out ( the kids joined me) had a shower, did some ironing, read my scriptures, made lunch, walked to the park, had a picnic, took Carmen to school, walked back home ( pushing asleep Isabel in the stroller and carrying Evan on my shoulders! As if I hadn't worked out already!) and now I need to get ready for my piano lessons ( did I mentioned I have yet another student!!! I'm so happy....this makes getting some money together for my trip to Utah even more possible!!).

All morning I've been thinking how hard it is to be on top of things.

I wish I had more time ( and ENERGY!) to have my hair done to perfection, take care of my feet, of my nails, a nice work out and flat belly, have perfectly made and healthy meals ( at a decent time too! not sure if 8 is an ideal time to have dinner), a perfectly clean and tidy home, perfectly dressed and sparkling kids, perfectly prepared lessons, being the best VTer, practice my piano and singing ... a good night of sleep!!

Is this possible?? Really.. IS IT??

I certainly can't do it!

I'm tired and it is only 1pm.

We'll see what state I'll be in at the end of the day :S

Winning... no whining

So I realize it's been a looooooong super loooong time since I shared anything I learned from my daily scripture reading... I do make time for my reading... I do NOT make time for blogging.

I just blog whenever I get a second :D

Anyway... I am so happy to tell that even without Evan ( that is the one who is always making sure I get the time to read) I've managed to organize my morning in a way that I can still have my little time for myself.

I do miss going running :(

And the weather is so nice, I wish I could escape and go for a jog sometime :S

I have to do something to squeeze some exercise in my day.

I feel good prepared for the show at the end of July.

I'm singing:

Over the rainbow

I'll stand by you

Si tu no estas

The way I am.

I just need the sound check and I feel ready :D

I got two more piano students yesterday.

I got 5!! Probably one more coming too :D

I just pay my tithing and the blessings keep coming.

I didn't have to open my mouth or advertise myself in any way. People just asked me to teach them and they are all happy to adjust to my circumstances... so it's great!

I know that things are not perfect, that my life is full of challenges, but I find that the less I whine the more I win.

If only we spent more time and energy in praying and doing good and less time and energy in whining, we would see what the Lord is trying to make of us.... and we would rejoice!

I know I've been given much... but I know the Lord will continue to bless me if I but follow Him in faith.

One of my favorite scriptures:

"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not on thy own understanding.

in all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths".

What if... ?

Carmen asked me something last night...

She wanted to know what will happened if I died and daddy wasn't here.

This little girl of mine taught me a lesson. We need to be prepared, right?

So I sat with them and explained to them what they should do if anything happened to me.

Carmen knows the numbers so she is to dial 911... and go to our neighbors for help. ( They are the nicest people and they come to our ward too).

Evan was getting really upset, saying mommy don't die :S

He is very sensitive and gets scared really easy.

We practiced giving information to the police...like their name, daddy's name, where he is, our address...things like that.

Carmen was worried that the police will run out of maps to find uncle Jordan's house :D

She said that nothing will really happen because we pray everyday for protection.

We talked a little about death and she said we will all have to die if we wanted to be with Jesus.... and that we will all see him come again.

I love my kids. You never hope for any child to have to go thru anything like that.

I prayed last night and asked my Father in Heaven to spare them that experience but by the end I was asking to give them strength to go thru anything that will come their way.

I am sure they will face difficulty, like everyone of us, they just need the strength to believe that He will be there and never leave them alone to face their trials.

"I can do anything through Christ that strengtheneth me".

( Philip 4:13)

Bye Bye May!

May is over...can you believe it?

I had a good May.

Evan was not working or going to school... so I had him ALL to myself :D

We had some good fun.

I don't think I said it before... but Evan released a single in Itunes.

Only Love... my favorite!

http://itunes.apple.com/ca/artist/evan-clarke/id372554198

You can go here and get it.

The complete album will be out soon.

I am so excited he's finally got it out there to the public.

So yes... it is good... pass it on!

He did some recording for me too.... I am so excited I get to have my first payed performance in a month!!

I am so excited to get started in my music... :D

We also got to do the most fun thing ever for our last date.

We had planned to attend the last session at the Temple last Friday... but there was some confusion and it was overbooked, so we ended up doing sealings.

Yay! We looooved it!

Evan had been doing some genealogy... actually that's what has kept him till late every night this month, so we had lots of names.

It was beautiful!

It was amazing!

I had done the work for two women before, and we had six kids sealed to them.

It was like if I knew them. Like I could feel how they felt... it was amazing. I couldn't stop crying.

I loved it.

The sealer was so special. He kept sharing thoughts with us, making comments, and kept saying he wasn't supposed to talk that much.

There were another two couples with us... so it felt really intimate.

It was great.

I love having done that with Evan.

The sealer even let us kissed on the altar.

He must have observed how we were looking at each other because he said: I am not watching!.... hahaha

After that we got to clean the Temple. Evan and I were in charge of moping and vacuuming the first floor.

It was great. We had lots of people, so we did it fast. Well... it was midnight when we were leaving the Temple.... But it felt great to do it!

The next day we had a great time at a BBQ with some friends... there is another good girl that is leaving to the States! It is the second time that happens to me! I find someone who I connect with and they move!.... my luck making friends here!... oh well...

Now June is going to be a challenge...

but hey! It is my first summer in Vancouver so there is so much to do here! :D

I won't say no to visitors! ;P

I don;t have any money, but I'll try to get some together and go down to Idaho-Utah and visit! No promises, because I am poor... but I'll try!