Sunday....bloody Sunday......

It is a good u2 song.

Sunday was the day he left.

After a busy weekend, we got to have a good cuddle session in the morning before everyone got up.

We took him to the airport and said our goodbyes.

When we were on our way back to the car, Carmen said: I miss dad already!...

Me too...

I know I will have a hard month, and then it will get even worse.

It was our stake conference and Elder Utchdorff and Ballard were speaking from Vancouver, so I wanted to go... but I barely made it to the end.

When I got home... I went on a cleaning mood.

I get like that when I am upset.

I take it on my untidy house... so it is good :D

I cleaned my room.... and Evan's side looks empty :(

His part of the closet looks empty :(

His side of my heart is empty too.... Can't wait to talk to him...whenever that is.

Camping

So I posted their pictures backwards in order...

But since Evan was going to be away for the summer he didn't want to miss a chance to go camping with Carmen and Evan.

I was happy to stay. I am NOT the camping girl type... and I like camping even less with kids... So I enjoyed my day off and took the bus into town, went to the library with Isabel and went to the mall ( I got to spend the money Evan gave me for Christmas... yes, I still had it in my pocket) and I love what I bought :D

Please... try not to be so jelause of my car...

if everything goes according to plan we'll be getting a newer car when Evan gets back... newer as in 5 or 6 years newer ;P

Apparently Carmen conducted the photo shoot :D

Dani's B-day! and Reuben's Baptism

I have to write about this day...and I don't want to think about it anymore.

We had a fun b-day party for Evan's favorite friend Dani.

He is from the Spanish preschool group I take the kids to on Tuesdays.

Of course...they had a pinyata! :D

So they got lots of candy :D

Then we stop home to catch on the hockey game... they lost ( not a very happy hubby :S).

We went to Reuben's baptism. I was so excited to spend the evening with the Leonard's plus Elder Webster and wife... but I spent the evening at the Hospital, worried about my little Isabel.

At least my kids enjoyed themselves. They are in love with Reuben and Holly and they love them in return!

Some of the fun I missed :P

Carmen's Class

I never posted some pictures from the little performance Carmen's class put together for the mothers.

She never practiced in front of me because she wanted to keep it a surprise.

I didn't cry because they were too many mothers around, but she is AMAZING.

She actually gave me the highlight of the day yesterday.

I had had such a crappy day ( quite possibly because I am entering that time of the month)

and all I wanted to do was cry all day.

Well.. it was my turn to put Carmen to bed and I sang a song for her. And then I asked her something I always do:

ME: Do you know something?

CARMEN: I know. You always say that. You love me.

ME: Yes, I always tell you, because I want you to really know that I love you. So that when you are alone , you can think Mom loves you.... or when you're sad and you can think Mom loves you.

CARMEN: But... I'm never sad because I always think of you.

ME: Me too... I always think of you.

I really love her.

Sleeping Beauty

Thanks to all of you praying out there for my little precious girl.

She is doing so much better.

Her fever seems to be under control now.

She is such a joy to us.

We love her more than words can say... and we are so happy she is back.

Breath, breath... breath...

As many of you know, have heard... Isabel had a seizure on Sunday night.

We had a very busy day with Church, stop at the library, a birthday party, a baptism... and it was hot, then rain, then hot again...about an hour in the car, and a heat wave ( without air conditioning)... didn't help things.

So we got at the church in Abbostford where we were attending the baptism of Reuben, the son of a family that moved here from our mission in England. There we met an Elder ( and wife) that I served with too. It was going to be an excellent night. But when we were ready to move to the font room, Evan was carrying Isabel in his arms and she started struggling for breath... and immediately started to seize up and shake and jerk.

I won't give details, but it was the most horrible scene I've ever had to witness. I couldn't even look, I turned around and I just said: My baby is having a seizure!. The lady that was coming right behin us happened to be a nurse. And they called a man that was a doctor there.

All I could hear was Isabel's heavy breathing... The nurse kept pulling me to look at my baby. "She is ok. She is breathing, she is ok".

She was fighting to live.... my little girl is a real fighter.

She is my hero.

It all happened really fast, the doctor called emergency, he was on the phone answering questions, relating what was happening... all a matter of two minutes, but to me it seemed like hours.

By the time the ambulance got there, Evan had given here a blessing and she was sleeping.

We had to wake her up to see if she was responsive... but she wasn't herself at all.

After a couple hours at the hospital, some tests and some drugs ( and a couple of popscicles!) she was back to normal.

When Carmen saw us coming back she was so happy to Isabel happy again. She witnessed the whole thing and wouldn't leave Isabel's side.

She told me she had prayed so many times for her to be better.

I have another hero.

Her fever is not yet under control, comes up very sudden so I have to watch her closely.

My heart still hurts... it literally hurts. I have this images cross my mind and I get so scared.

I am so blessed to have these amazing kids... and I am such an imperfect mother...

I can almost cry at the thought of losing any of them.

I just need to breath, breath..... breath.

Photo Shoot

After over 6 years of marriage...and three kids....

this is our first photo shoot.

This one is just a preview of the ones to come!

Stay tuned! :D

Thanks Auntie Laura!!

Temple Dedication

Our beautiful Temple was dedicated to the Lord and it was amazing!
We attended the first dedicatory session, so we could see the Corner Stone Ceremony as well.

I am glad we did.

We got to our Stake Center and hour before it started, and Evan and I sat quietly, pondering on the magnitude of what we were about to witness.

It will change our lives.... I can just feel it!

The Celestial room is amazing.

Can't wait to attend the Temple regularly!

It is only 45 min. away!

President Monson is so amazing.

He has a wonderful sense of humor... and he is just powerful.

Sister Monson couldn't come, but he brought, I quote: "the next best": their only daughter. Isn't it cute?

Elder Utchdorff was amazing as well.

The whole experience has been a bliss.

I am going next Saturday. One of the sister I visit teach is getting her endowments and she is getting sealed the Saturday after that.

She's asked me to take care of their 6 month old baby and bring her to them for the sealing!! I'm so lucky!!!

I know the Temple is the House of God, a place of love and beauty.

A place where we are sealed together... As a child of God, I've learned this truth:

A FAMILY IS FOREVER!

In the shoulders of giants

Saturday we had the Temple Youth Celebration.

It was fantastic.

I am so glad I went.

I cried... a lot.

It was magical.

My favorite part: the end. All the youth looking towards the Temple.

And the Pioneers. My in-laws were among them.

In the words of Sir Isaac Newton:

"If I had seen farther it is only by standing on the shoulders of giants".

I love the multicultural part as well.

I love Canada.

This country and these people really celebrate its cultural diversity... and I like that.

All was amazing... and I got to see it!