bad things happen... and it's ok.

i never get to write much these days...

but thinking of all the things that have happened lately, i have learned a few things. Most importantly:

bad things happen ... and it's ok!

that's just life. giving you chances to become strong.

when something bad comes my way i always end up feeling that i am stronger than i thought.

this time, i've also learned the power of having a good/positive attitude. there's nothing so bad that nagging about it would not make it worse, right?? well, keeping a good attitude through hard times makes things better too!

i've seen that the more i trust the more at peace i am.

things are going crazy... and things are real hard right now, but there is so much i am grateful for, so much that makes my life so full that i can't complaint.

i have a wonderful husband that is doing sooooo great in school. that is working so hard to provide a brighter future for our family. so humble ( i know people might think that humble is not an adjective that describes him .but he is truly humble, so humble sometimes i don't like he recognizes and rectifies his mistakes so fast i can't hold them against him!) so in tune and caring to my needs. he is also my partner in learning...and i couldn't have a better one. so understanding and so patient with me. i really feel we're a good team. we rely on each other and we push each other and inspire each other to become our best.

my kids are my other partners in learning.

i was "teaching" carmen how to clean the toilet and when she showed me how she could do it i grabbed the clothe from her hand and i was mean... i was so mean! bless her kind heart, she only said: well... it was my first time. 

that's when i knew i had to apologize.

i had an amazing conversation with her.

it was one of  those teaching moments for me... the lesson was for me. how could i expect her to think i have confidence in her and then do things like that. how can she believe she can do anything if i react that way to her first attempts at doing something new?

i don't like what happened, i'm glad it happened because it helps me be better. bless my kids.... they have a mother who sucks. and despite all my mistakes they are great! it's a miracle!

there is this phrase that is so true in my case:

" we might not have it all together,

but together we have it all "