bad things happen... and it's ok.

i never get to write much these days...

but thinking of all the things that have happened lately, i have learned a few things. Most importantly:

bad things happen ... and it's ok!

that's just life. giving you chances to become strong.

when something bad comes my way i always end up feeling that i am stronger than i thought.

this time, i've also learned the power of having a good/positive attitude. there's nothing so bad that nagging about it would not make it worse, right?? well, keeping a good attitude through hard times makes things better too!

i've seen that the more i trust the more at peace i am.

things are going crazy... and things are real hard right now, but there is so much i am grateful for, so much that makes my life so full that i can't complaint.

i have a wonderful husband that is doing sooooo great in school. that is working so hard to provide a brighter future for our family. so humble ( i know people might think that humble is not an adjective that describes him .but he is truly humble, so humble sometimes i don't like he recognizes and rectifies his mistakes so fast i can't hold them against him!) so in tune and caring to my needs. he is also my partner in learning...and i couldn't have a better one. so understanding and so patient with me. i really feel we're a good team. we rely on each other and we push each other and inspire each other to become our best.

my kids are my other partners in learning.

i was "teaching" carmen how to clean the toilet and when she showed me how she could do it i grabbed the clothe from her hand and i was mean... i was so mean! bless her kind heart, she only said: well... it was my first time. 

that's when i knew i had to apologize.

i had an amazing conversation with her.

it was one of  those teaching moments for me... the lesson was for me. how could i expect her to think i have confidence in her and then do things like that. how can she believe she can do anything if i react that way to her first attempts at doing something new?

i don't like what happened, i'm glad it happened because it helps me be better. bless my kids.... they have a mother who sucks. and despite all my mistakes they are great! it's a miracle!

there is this phrase that is so true in my case:

" we might not have it all together,

but together we have it all "

my turning point

there was a sister in my ward that was going to the temple for the first time and i had been organizing everything so that evan and i could go.

i got evan to free up his evening, got the babysitter...and when we're all ready to leave, evan looks at his temple recommend and it expired at the end of the month. I was thinking mine had a whole year to go, but when i got it out...it was already expired!!!

my heart dropped.

i was so upset.

i got everything else ready, and how could i have forgotten about my recommend??

really!! how could i have??

the one time in months that evan and i could have gone together and i totally blew it.

can't stop getting all frustrated thinking about it.

and almost all of march the temple is closed for cleaning :(

anyway... sunday, at testimony meeting she bored her testimony.

i couldn't but relate so much to her.

i went and talk to her afterwards.

i had the same feeling when i entered the temple for the first time: 

this church is so true!

the temple was my turning point.

after my experience at the temple there is nothing, or no one that can tell me otherwise.

it's not like i ever had doubts... i just knew that i will never have doubts.

i knew that if we ever have any chances of making it back to God's presence it will be by abiding to every principle and ordinance that this church has to offer

i hope not to sound arrogant or overbearing... but there is no other church that has full truth, full authority and power to help us have what God has. Be who He is.

and one of the signs of how i know this, it's because in no other church are there temples.

i love the temple.

i love the opportunity i had on sunday to have an interview with my bishop and later with my stake leader to have my recommend extended to me again.

 i can't wait for the temple to open again so i can go in and feel of His love.

can't wait!

I'm proud

some of my favorite teaching moments happen while i have the kids in the car and we're on our way to places.

carmen and evan were talking about how old they'll be when i am 36- 40 years old.

then evan said: when i am 18 i'll be on my mission.

and carmen she would be on a mission too because now that girls could go on missions at 19 they'll be leaving at the same time.

so evan said: yeah! and mom will be so proud of us!

i started picturing that day, when i'll be sending my first 2 born children on a mission.

imagining the day i'll pick them up at the airport once they're done.

i can't imagine that day.

evan is right! i'll be a proud mama!!

but i see them now when they're 6 and 8... and i'm so proud!

so i told them.

i'm already proud of them.

it made me realize....we might think we have to do a big thing for our heavenly father to be proud of us.

but no!

we just have to do little things, be good in little ways.

he's not waiting for us to do this amazing thing to please him, but in fact he rejoices when little by little we change the world.

when we let our influence for good be felt around us.

so he's proud.

he's already proud

:)