With Evan home, summer is WAY more fun!
Yes he's been working some days, but still... it feels better when he's home.
We've enjoyed beach and water all together as well as on our own. And it has been fun.
I love summer.
I love summer here.
And this summer is especially good!
It's been hot hot hot, so I've even gotten some tan back :)
Just lately I've been feeling so blessed.
Just thinking about all the little things in my life that makes it amazing.
So many miracles that are so overwhelming.
that's how I've felt.... overwhelmed with happiness!
God is really in the details of our lives.
He's so merciful towards me.
All the things He gives me, and He gives and gives and gives to me.
I feel loved beyond words.
He loves me. And to know that makes me so happy.
I had a beautiful experience reading this lesson:
Amazing lesson and amazing experience...
And it will be hard to put into words...
I think I've read the story of the young rich man many of times.
Always, in the back of my mind, thought it was about letting go of worldly possessions. About not putting your heart on riches.
But this time, when I read it, I caught myself thinking the same way: " oh well, this is not for me, I don't have money, i don't have a lesson for me in this story".
But I stopped myself. and thought, maybe, just maybe there was a lesson. And I opened my heart. I let it teach me something.
And the most interesting thing happened.
There was a lesson for me! ( duh!)
The words :
" WHAT LACK I YET?"
Suddenly I had something to relate to with this young man.
I don't have riches, but I have the desire to know what else to do to make it to the celestial kingdom.
And then came the introspection: what could the Savior tell me to do that will cause me to "go away sorrowful"?
Then it hit me.
The love of the Savior hit me.
He was having a one on one time with me right there.
and i felt His Love.
His loving teaching moment with me.
How much He wants me to learn, to feel, to be.
And once again, I knew, that He is in the little moments, in the big moments, in EVERY moment of my life cheering for me, lending me a hand, and lifting me up, and He will until I have become what He sees in me.
It is one of the most especial "tender mercies" I have ever experienced.
Amazing.
I've been blessed temporally and spiritually beyond comprehension.
I'm so grateful.
In the middle of all these awe, how beautiful life is and all that....
of course something happens to slap you in the face.
It is also hard to put into words. And I've cried all the tears i had to cry, but now I'm better.
It was hard to understand what happened, but I realize that sometimes it is hard to be happy for someone else's good fortune.
I am not telling of my blessings to rub it on anyone's faces. I do it because I am amazed and because I am grateful and I recognize that all the good things come from God, not through anything I have done or could ever do.
I love people in my life that are happy for me when good things happen, and I love people that are sad with me when I am going trough rough times. and in both times they are uplifting and encouraging.
But then you find out that someone you love, someone you've proved your character to, that you thought you knew them and they knew you, is saying horrible things about you and feels very different about you than you thought, well, then it breaks your heart.
And when you apologize, and they rather hang on to resentment than to your friendship...well, then, there's nothing else to do.
And it breaks your heart a little more.
So I am far from saying: "look at me, I am so good, I am so blessed"
but instead: " look at me, I am so imperfect I try and I fail so many times... and still I can feel God's love and He blesses me".
He does it for me and He will do it for anyone.
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