I Don't Want To Use The "F" Word

....But I have to...
I am FAT.
It is not that I just discovered it. I've never been skinny... the surprise has been that I haven't lost any weight since I had Evan.... what makes me Fatter that I was after nine months of pregnancy with Carmen.
I was so depressed for two days. I felt so down because I have been killing myself in the gym for almost 8 Months...and NOTHING???? It totally sucks...
I've always believed that I lost weight eating less...or not eating at all... But NO! Even that has worked against me. Not eating has actually made me Fatter. The fact that I'm still breastfeeding hasn't helped either.
So after that moment of truth...I am on a diet. Not really a diet, I have just made some rules for my diet.
I have a plan of attack! And I'm decided to loose at least the 56 pounds I put on with Evan Mikel. My plan consists of drinking at least 2 liters of water a day, no sweets, no soda, no fast food, no chips, no butter, no pork. Lots of greens ( at least half of my meal). Only one piece of bread per day. Have breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner, snack. Go to the gym 3-4 times a week. Get out more, move more ( so I put on the music very loud and I dance with the babies....they love it!!! and it's super fun).
Last but no least is the exercise of my mind. This means doing things I like to do, have a time for my development. So I read , I play the piano, I also started writing songs, I go to the ASL classes, I work on my piano lessons, on my calling... And the other thing is to look good! This is just to help me remember why I want to lose weight... cause I want to look hot!... hotter!! :D
AHHHHHHHHH.... I forgot...If I am good and I keep all the things in my list I can have a treat at the end of the week...which I know what it will be....a triple chocolate frutopia form Dairy Queen!!
But not this week....because I missed breakfast one day and I never had a snack yesterday....
Well....wish me luck...pray for me...It will almost be a miracle if I make it! But I will, I know!

ShE RoCkS My WorLd!!!!!

You may think that I'm obsessed with my little girl...and you might be right!!
I'M IN LOVE WITH HER!
She was doing some more posing for me this morning so I took some more pictures of her...
as if I didn't have enough...NO! I can never ever have enough!

My Beautiful Children

Carmen all dress up for Church

And Evan...as cute as always!

Great Weekend!

Jordan and Tracey (with Maria and Jane) came over to the Island for the weekend. We had a little party for Maria's birthday on Friday afternoon. I know I should have taken pictures of the birthday girl....but instead I took pictures of Carmen, mostly... what can I say??? I'm in love with my own daughter! She had so much fun with all her cousins.



Then all the couples went out for dinner to Amrikos, an Indian restaurant, with belly dancer included.. It was a really good night.
In the morning (7 in the morning) all the guys went to lay hockey and as Evan was living our driveway he smashed one of the side mirrors against the pillar...our brand new truck!
When he got home I went to the gym, and I thought that I was going to a basic step class but the instructor didn't come so they called this other one that I had yesterday in the "Sweat Zone" class and she did the same exact thing!!! I was dead by the end of the class...but when I thought we were done, she throws in some abs... I was sore!!
The rest of the day.... we had a good nap, we went to the mall, Evan went to play Ice Hockey and when he got home I already had the kids in bed, so in our alone time we watched " Man of the House" had some Evan's favorites Bold Barbecue Doritos and went to bed.
Sunday morning we get a phone call... we have an interview with the Stake President... a calling??? yes! Evan has been called as the second counselor in the Elders Quorum. In Sacrament our newest nephew: Noah Maxwell was blessed. After church we all went to mom and dad's house for pot luck but they were not there. Dad had a mini stroke and they were at the hospital.... scary! We got to see him before we went home and he was feeling better already.
On our way home we stopped by a sister form church. She gave us a dishwasher. when we where getting it inside our house, taking it up the stairs I hurt my back!!! again!!! This time I was crying!! Out of pain and of frustration!! So that was the end of my day... hopefully it won't take me two months to be able to move without pain.

Do You Believe in These Things????

It might not be true, but it totally hit the right power color....BLACK!! my favorite ( and white too, Sarah!!) and the MUSICAL NOTE????? totally!!!

You try it!!

Your Birthdate: December 20

You are a virtual roller coaster of emotions, and most people enjoy the ride. Your mood tends to set the tone of the room, and when you're happy, this is a good thing. When you get in a dark mood, watch out - it's very hard to get you out of it. It's sometimes hard for you to cheer up, and your gloom can be contagious. Your strength: Your warm heart Your weakness: Trouble controlling your emotions Your power color: Black Your power symbol: Musical note Your power month: February

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

No Longer a Baby!!??!!!

My little Evan is not that little anymore...He is a BIG BOY now!
He's been trying to walk lately and started taking the first steps a couple of days ago. I feel like I don't have a baby anymore... I can't believe how fast these last 9 and a half months have passed!.
Many people would say that I was crazy for getting pregnant so close after having Carmen...but what they don't know is that HE is exactly what I needed! He is my little angel....I've had to go through the hardest things I've had to go through so far in my life, and I must say that my baby kept me strong, kept me hopeful, kept me assured of the good things that will come to me...to us!
He is the greatest blessing, the greatest manifestation of love from God to me!

did you say blonde????

Yes! You heard it right....BLONDE! Not just blonde...platinum blonde!! I'm next... but don't worry, I won't go that far!

I think he's hot...what do you think?